Throughout my life, I have seldom been the most vocal individual in a group as I have always felt that you should have something worth saying before you said it. You should have something enlightening, entertaining, or enthralling to merit the time and attention you are asking to be paid to you when you make a comment. So my reputation is frequently one of being quiet and shy but smart and funny whereas I think of my self as simply courteous.
That said, over the years the concept has sunk in that people do not require that the conversation or media they consume have any particular merit other than it comes from a source they have previously categorized as likable. I have observed a young lady listening to the most insipid drivel that has ever oozed from a conscious being moved as if she was watching McKellen's Lear carry Cordelia. I have seen serious men nod in grave agreement as a nubile flirt shared thoughts on politics that would have made Stalin and Hoover bond over the shared trauma of being exposed to such ignorant idealism.
Evidence that I am not that smart, merely courteous, is that it took me years to understand why I did not forge the same relationships as quickly as others did. I have been incredilby lucky to have very strong friendships with a few exceptional people, but unfortunatley the combination of my bafflement with the world and my small cadre of confidants led to some elitism hardly commensurate with my accomplishments in life. However, this elitsm developed later in life with the primary defense mechanism of my youth being humor, specifically a self-effacing brand of humor which I hope tempers the more outragious aspects of my arrogance.
So, that background provided and those confessions made, what I expect to see in the future posts of this blog are some of the topics and themes of the day refracted through my own lenses of humor, arrogrance, economics, and poetry which I hope makes for some entertaining and informative though likely strained and at times agonizing reading.
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